To Roni

today is my oldest friend's birthday.

we met in kindergarten, before we knew it was not okay to wear a dress AND sit with your legs open.

we made it through the drama of throwing up at eachother's houses and discovering you have chicken pox at a sleepover.

our friendship survived a 4 hour journey after years of being one minute away.

we stayed friends through our silly teen years as we morphed into who we were becoming.

and now, we've been friends for 18 years; 14 of those from afar.

she's basically family..

she's my oldest friend.

let's be honest though, that girl and i will be friends forever:

she's one of the only people i still CALL on their birthday.

and i dont need a calendar or facebook reminder.

I ALWAYS remember.

Love you lady!

a little bike ride

alan and i went to hang out with my family this weekend.

getting the F out of town is always nice.

plus, with the beautiful weather we couldnt help but go on a bike ride.

i am also pretty ecstatic about how adorable alan and Rox are. 

Longboarding with a dog is a treat!

bye

i mentioned earlier that our neices came to visit. I failed to take many pictures because it was a busy week, but we had a pretty great time!

arent they the cutest?

we're sad they're gone..but they'll be back in January!

dedicated to my grandma ward

My instinct about almost everything in life that I have feelings about, it to write.

Hence the 'honest to blog' nature of everything I write.

However, the long pauses of time that I go without posting are not because I'm not feeling, but because I'm feeling too deeply to put my thoughts and feelings in a public place on the internet.

You'll see that I've taken some time off from blogging.

However I'm ready to share some feelings

And I hope I'm not being inappropriate by sharing them, but here they are:

My grandmother was large part of my life. My namesake, she helped raise me and has watched me grow from an infant to an adult. Her and my grandfather have cared for and loved me and my family dearly. It was so hard to watch my grandma lay in bed almost unconscious and my grandpa with tears streaming downs his face. It was hard to see my mom be so sick and want so badly to take care of her parents. It was so upsetting to hear my grandmother had passed away a few hours after we left, even if she was old. It was so sweet that she hung on until we got to say goodbye.

I've been marveling at the perspective death provides. Everything seems so much bigger than what I'm doing now. All of the things that upset me seem so insignificant when I think of the power of a family being together in the last minutes of life. Family should always be one of the biggest priorities. They are the only ones there when its all said and done.

I will admit to feeling sad (especially about my grandpa being alone now), but I also feel so grateful that I know families are forever. I know my grandma is with her family right now, and I know she's so happy.

There you have it. I hope this doesn't come off weepy or as a call for pity; it surely is not.

These are my feelings and that is that.

This is literally a text conversation from my life.

A couple of months ago, I had this exact conversation with my sister via text.

It made me pee a little bit while I was receiving the texts, and a little bit even more when I went back and read them again. OMG. Seriously, if you have to pee a little bit, go now. This story will still be here when you get off the pot.

{spellings and mispesllings and word usage have not been tampered with whatsoever. THey just enhance this conversation}

Veronica: hello(: This is Veronica

Me: Sup

Veronica: my life sucks and im afraid im gonna die

because i accidentally took too much tylenol earlier

and apparently its gonna kill me now.

how about you?

Me: Um, how much did you tale

Me: *take

Veronica: I dont even know..

like 2 and then 2 more

but its definately made me high

and it was a total accident

because i forgot i already took some

like 30 mins b

Veronica: efore...and it was at school.

but please dont tell mom and dad.

i am not a druggie.

Me: MMk first of all.

I took like 8 tylenols every day

through every basketball season i was in.

Secondly, you would have to take alot

more tylenol than that to get high.

Your mind is trickingyou.

Veronica: okay..good to know. thanks

Veronica: gotta go bye

Seriously?!

Are you peeing?

REdic!

I really want to be best friends with her.

Oh...

I already am.

My sisters

Meet Samantha and Veronica. 12 & 15. Two of the funniest people I know.

Veronica plays the guitar and Sammie, who is nicknamed Captain and shall go by that from here forward, plays violin. Let me just say that the Nield girls are quirky, creative and kindof weird. In a fun way.

I only live 45 minutes away from them, but gas ain't cheap. I miss them. They are just so fun.

P.s. the above pictured is them meeting Apolo Ohno. Umm, captain..yeah she's obsessed with him. She made posters about him and hung them in her room after he won his like, 100th race.

The only thing that sucks about them is that I'm so much older than both of them. I would have LOVED to shovel snow in my swim suit back when I could rock one.

Love and miss you, sisters. :)

3:43 and

everything is just perfect. RIght now at 3:43 PM on Novemeber 27.

I am well rested, just showered and full.

Thanksgiving with my family was just what I needed.

I just love my great family.

I bought some goods on this blackest of fridays,

Homework is done.

So great.

I wont even end this with the But that I know is sure to come 9:00 on monday

...i wont think about it until then.

Just In Time For Easter!

Don't you just love these nail lacquers?

*I am all about the pastels lately, and just in time for the Easter Holiday!

I also splurged on an orangy color from little Cassie McBean's fingers. I totally copied it because it is so super FAB.

Separately, check out our little niece Avery. Gramma Bodily hooked her up with a raincoat and galoshes and Ave apparently had a ball in the rainy Kansas weather!

Look at that precious face! We loveeee her!

weekend

I went and saw my cousins in spanish fork this weekend. Q: ew? SF. A: haha i know. woof huh
let me tell you how obsessed i am with Khloey! she is absolutely the sweetest thing on this planet.

shes the happiest baby ever && she has the sweetest personality
obsessed.

oh and also! I made this chain for the days left till Al gets back. Today is 17 days left and i absolutely cannot wait to pick him up in Salt LAke.
FREAKING OUT !!!