"its just the way her face looks"

i saw this here. and how true it rings.

i have one of those faces that isnt real smiley. i have downturned lips that give off the impression that firstly, i am white. and secondly, that i am less than pleased.

i have been asked by strangers {especially when i worked at the Hilton. ew} why i dont smile like her.

"why dont you smile more? you have such a pretty face when you smile"

my mom used to get mad because i looked so 'surly' when we walked into church. sorry i couldnt plaster on a beauty pageant smile for ya. people see through that crap.

people tell me that they are afraid of me when they first meet me. what a first impression, right?

i have no in-between look. its either pissed, or the just-got-crowned.

unfortunately, when i feel that i look pleasant, i really look like i'm skankin' you out, girl.

so if we meet in the near future and i look pissed...i'm not.

you'll know im pissed when my eyes turn red and the horns emerge.

i suffer from chronic Beeyatch Face.

its just the way my face is.

hello,

my name is melissa.

i work for homeshield.

pest control.

but not in sales.

just in the office.

{i tried one day of selling, i cant believe my husband does it. wooof}

thank you thank you..i got a job.

im leaving soon to go start.

i bet you didnt even know i needed/ wanted a job.

i didnt either.

until i realized that i would like some money.

and that perhaps, i will get:

too tan

too well rested

too ahead in life

{we cant have any of that!}

if i dont do something soon.

so, in the words of tobias,

'huzzah!'

Last night...

we played with Averie's crayola color explosion. Our artwork turned out fabulous. Dont worry about the creepy poses. I've had a nasty cold sore (my first, dang it) and I've been trying to hide my face as much as possible. Alan was just trying to make me feel better by hiding his face too.

Also, a few more days until the new year! I am really excited. I know the fresh start of a new year is built up a little unrealistically and by Feburary we've long abandoned our resolutions...but I'm feeling oddly optimistic about 2011. Another post on the new year later.

Ok and p.s. I am obsessed with bullseye. I think hes so so tender.

Friday's picture

{picture of the walls of my room in high school}

When I was 17, I decided that I wanted to paint my walls. ish.

What I really wanted to do, was to paint my favorite quotes all over my walls.

I think it was a beautiful project.

My parents did not concur.

Nevertheless, I did it and to this day I love the way it turned out.

Just to name a few:

"She who sees from up high smiles and surely sings"- Incubus

"Love of life means hope for me, you are the new day"- Knight

"Upon my pillow safe in bed, a thousand pictures fill my head"- Whitacre

"I suggest we learn to love ourselves before its made illegal"-Incubus

I think words are beautiful