27 May 2010

Surprise! I am actualy not gay! Or emo!

As a teenager, I had many guilty internet pleasures. (Not PORN!) More like, learning HTML codes, so that I could make my Myspace unique and envi-able. Also, filling out countless quizzes that ask questions like 'Who was the last person you kissed?' or 'Name three things you do every day.' Taking pictures of myself specifically for myspace was a folly of mine as well. I loved making lists in my early blogging days about my favorite music, or 20 things you don't know about me. I will admit to you right now that I still enjoy this phenomena. It's not that I find my life amusing by any stretch. I would say I am average in many regards. Its that I was 15, or 16, or 17 even 18&19..and occasionally 20 and felt the need to talk about myself without interruptions. In the past few years, I have become the girl that paraphrases a story so much that it basically is disinteresting. Even if it was juicy to start with. I never want to talk about myself for too long because I want to avoid being selfish as well as being rudely interrupted.

Why am i writing about this?

I decided days ago that I would do some soul searching this summer. Being jobless and alone all day gives me that luxury. Though it may come off that all i do is write blogs about (a)nothing and (b)Adam Brody (who is slowly becoming my most used post subject label ), I have been dissecting why I do the things I do, and why I am me. Its become apparent that I have had a self loathing problem that needs fixing. I thought I would start with the fact that I have a 'Titling problem'. That is, a precursor title that lets you know that you're about to read might be lame, but in my head, you can't judge me for it because I warned you. (Such titles include, but are not limited to 'If you didn't already know how homo I am', 'I'm gay', etc.) Now that my little sister does the same exact thing, I realize that it just makes you look idiotic.*More so than just putting your quiz out there with a "regular" title. So there's that.

Also, I realize this post is long. I would never use such time to express myself in person unless you are a close friend, and probably not even then. But, I don't think I will apologize for the legnth. I dont really feel like it tonight.

I however, do feel like holding off of the Adam Brody Label for the sake of not seeeming pathetic(but I still am, hahahahha). I think this will fall under Weird things I do, and . I dont have a specific instance that I use the peace sign to label, other than that I feel like it at that particular time.

*I don't think she's an idiot per say, but I do know that she is 14. Which is kind of an idiot age, really. Love her:)

1 comment:

  1. I laughed out loud 4 times. You are freaking funny ma. I love your quirky/sarcastic sense of humor. and I know how the whole 'age 14' goes. That's Lerin's age.. haha